TRUST AND IMAGINATION = FREEDOM
I’ve been struggling with trusting myself for as long as I can remember. All the old voices in my head tell me not to, that I am not good enough, that I am simply not to be trusted. When I was in fifth grade, my teacher had given everyone else in the class the opportunity to have the responsibility of taking the key to the classroom cabinet home… that is, everyone but me. I literally pleaded with her to allow me to have that privilege! It’s crazy what we are brainwashed to think is important when we are kids! Anyway, she finally agreed with a great deal of hesitation. Well, you all know what happened! I left the key on my dining room table to my dismay! I almost didn’t have a choice… you know I was set up from the beginning!
I am in the process of reading the book BIG MAGIC by Elizabeth Gilbert. She brilliantly describes to the reader how to have a love affair with your creativity and encourages sneaking off any time you have even fifteen minutes to spend on something you love to do. In her case, it’s writing. In mine, it could be playing crystal bowls, painting, playing with crystals, and more recently, I am also enjoying writing.
I realized as I mulled over what she was saying, that trusting myself is intimately connected with my creativity, that my creativity is intimately connected with my imagination, and that my imagination, in turn, is completely connected with my trust. Funny, it seems to come full circle!
I decided to pull the plug on that part of me that was not allowing my imagination to drive the Porsche at full speed. Imagination has free reign now, pushing down on the gas pedal at whatever speed she likes, instead of cowering in the back seat.
How does that help me trust myself? Everything that I used to think might be the truth, but just went around and around in my head in a cloud of dust, has been given value. Not one single person can tell me it’s not true! Why on earth is it ok for some people to put out the truth that comes from their imagination and have the world believe them and not others?? (By the way, I’m still happy even if I’m the only person in the world that believes it!!)
Imagination is my new best friend. I see dragons and angels and fairies and all sorts of beings in colors and shapes. It’s fantastic! They are in the flowers and the birds and the animals, in the clouds and the trees. They are everywhere! Is it my imagination? You bet! And I trust myself more than I ever have in my life! It’s exciting and fun. Imagination has given me the key to trusting myself. That’s better than any old key that opens a classroom cabinet!
Go and run off with your imagination for fifteen minutes. Open the door to trust!
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